( Or why I almost didn’t post this )
I have a habit.
When I want to buy a gaming handheld, I don’t just buy it.
I compare.
I watch reviews.
I read Reddit threads.
I check performance charts.
I look at benchmarks I barely understand.
I imagine future games I might play.
I tell myself I’m being careful.
But if I’m honest — I’m trying to eliminate regret.
If I choose the perfect device, I won’t feel bad later.
If I research enough, I won’t make a mistake.
If I optimize properly, I’ll finally feel satisfied.
Except… that feeling never really comes.
Look at smartphones today.
They’re not just phones.
They’re cameras.
Gaming consoles.
Workstations.
Movie theatres.
Maps.
Torches.
Radios.
Fitness trackers.
Payment machines.
Every year they promise to do everything — better, faster, sharper.
And every year we ask:
Should I wait for the next version?
Should I choose the Pro model?
What if a better one comes out in three months?
At some point, it stops being about usefulness.
It becomes about optimization.
And I recently noticed something uncomfortable.
Sometimes I’m not improving things.
I’m delaying things.
It feels productive.
It looks smart.
It sounds responsible.
But underneath, it’s just fear wearing a well-designed outfit.
Fear of choosing wrong.
Fear of missing out.
Fear of not being “ready.”
This blog is proof of that.
I created it three months ago.
I adjusted the homepage.
I tweaked the wording.
I rearranged sections.
I thought about what kind of content it should be.
Light? Reflective? Practical? Personal?
I told myself I was refining the vision.
In reality, I was waiting.
Waiting to feel fully ready.
Waiting for the design to feel perfect.
Waiting for the first post to feel important enough.
Perfection becomes procrastination disguised as perfection.
So today I decided something small but important:
Maybe not everything needs to be optimized before it’s shared.
Maybe some things can just exist — imperfect, unfinished, human.
So this is my first post.
Not perfectly timed.
Not perfectly structured.
Not perfectly optimized.
Just published.
If you’ve ever waited a little too long because you wanted to get it “just right,”
consider this your gentle reminder.
Sometimes tea tastes just as good
even if the cup isn’t perfect !